Sutra: Live in love. Do your work. Make an end of your sorrows. ~The Dhammapada of Gautama the Buddha. CA. 500 BC~
Unless you do the work that is close to your heart you will remain unfulfilled. And the meditator finds immediately what his work is. The meditator finds intrinsically that this is his work; he does not have to think about it. It is so clear and so loud that he knows that he has to be a musician or he has to be a poet or he has to be this or that. It comes so clear that there is no question of doubt. And then he starts working; that work is his meditation.
Do what you love people...do what you love. And if you're not doing what you love...why not? What stands between you and happiness in what you do?
I currently work in a pet store...and while I like my job...it is in no way what I want to do for the rest of my life. I have become (especially lately) disenchanted with my job. There is actually a part of me that loathes it. Why haven't I left yet...well, a few reasons. I'm sure they will all ring a bell with you.....my husband decided that our marriage was over so I'm now living on less income (despite the fact that he's paying bills), I am a single mom again (despite that fact we have a "village" of people to help if needed....I don't ask unless desperate), I lack a college degree so I can't really get any higher than what I am until I get off my ass and do something and last, but certainly not least, I had no clear idea of what direction I wanted my life to go in for the longest time.
That is until a week or so ago....when I went to New Mexico to visit my family and pick up the kidlet. I was standing outside with my sister, chatting with her and looking at the stars. It hit me.....kinda like one of the stars just fell out and walloped me upside the head. I've decided that I want to be a Science Teacher. At first I thought maybe I was just bedazzled at all the stars in the night sky...you don't see that in the city ya'll....so I slept on it. Well....I didn't sleep well at all. Between a pain in my tooth (another story) and the prospect of finally doing something with my life; I was way too antsy to really get any sleep. I promptly told my mom in the morning and she is uber-excited. Although, I think she's more pleased with the fact that her oldest child has finally decided to be constructive with her life. LOL. Either way though.....this is what I want to do...it feels right :) Bonus...I get weekends, holidays and all sorts of time off throughout the year. Time to spend pursuing my passions...or grading papers or attending workshops...you know, whatever. LOL
What do you want to be when you grow up??