Ok, break time is over. I can't stand it anymore. I thought I needed silence...but really I need an outlet for my brain. I've thought about doing the 750 words site for all this (and truth be told, I probably will do that too) but I want to share this here. Just because the more I share this with people the better I feel.
My husband is a jackass. He's a lying, cheating bastard. And I mean that quite literally. We've been together almost six years, married for almost five and I found out the day before Valentine's Day that he cheated on me. He betrayed me. He lied about it. Asshole. And he did it with someone he works with....someone who dared to call me a friend. Ho-bag.
Yeah...I'm angry. I'm hurt. I feel so many emotions and feeling coursing through my brain over the past week that most of them don't even have names at this point...they just are. We are currently separated and I have no idea if I'm ever going to be able to forgive him for this. The general consensus of most of my friends is that I should file for divorce....yesterday. LOL. I love them for that. Unfortunately (or not...depending on how you look at it), he's still paying all the bills. Well...his money is. I have full access to his money and I pull it out as needed and pay what I need to pay. I even went out yesterday and bought myself $60 worth of new bras. And today I'm getting shoes for work....on his dime. So, this could work out to my advantage in some respect. *sigh* I don't know.
I'm not sure how I'm supposed to deal with all this. I'm not sure what I'm supposed to feel or say or believe anymore. I'm just tired....so very, very tired.
So...there you have it. An abbreviated version of what's been going on the past week. I'm going to give myself over the weekend to deal with it some more and then we will be back to our regularly scheduled line-up on Monday.
Love and tea-cozies!