Friday, September 24, 2010

Letting Go and Moving On

It's appropriate that I'm writing this the day after the Full Moon and two days after Mabon.....

I woke up incredibly late today....1130am....after an evening of gathering with my old coven members and some other friends to usher in Mabon and a night out at the lake to enjoy the beautiful light of the full moon. As I was checking emails, facebook, and drinking coffee, I got a text message from an acquaintance of mine asking if I would like to go to lunch with her. I almost said no...due to the fact that I was still in my jammies and I just new that I would have to listen to her attempt to apologize for breaking the friendship that we used to have. Instead, after a few moments of consideration, I agreed to go out with her. She came over while I was getting ready and we made small talk and such. Played catch up and all that. And to be perfectly honest....it was like it used to be for a few minutes. It was kind of nice.

We went to lunch and spent two hours eating and talking. We talked about all sorts of things...good and bad. She asked questions I never thought she would want the answers to and she took the responses way better than I thought she would. I was taught a lesson today.....sometimes in order to move on...you have to let go. Let go of the past, let go of preconceived notions that you may have formed about someone, let go of the drama that has been holding you back. If you can't let go to move on...you will never completely heal.

I know, deep in my soul, that my friendship with this young lady will never be as it once was. But, maybe one day, there will be a chance at something new and better.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

Wishing you all

A very Blessed Mabon.




It's time to give thanks to Nature for the wonderful bounties we have received throughout the year. Time to be thankful for friends, family, etc. What are you thankful for this year?

It's also time to cleanse (for me anyways), to banish bad habits and plant seeds (form thoughts) for fulfilling new goals in the year to come. What are you going to be doing?

I hope your Mabon is filled with joy and happiness. Mine will be....as soon as I get done with work :)

Monday, September 20, 2010

Pagan Pride

I have had several days to process and over-analyze the local Pagan Pride Day and I must say that my feelings haven't been soothed one iota since Saturday. I'm not sure if it's because I expected something more or the fact that last years was so much better...but this years local PPD left a bitter taste in my mouth and a heavy feeling in my heart.

They probaby should have deemed it Pagan Flea Market Day....that's all it was really. Don't get me wrong...I have absolutely nothing against the local crafters (Pagan or otherwise) getting together to sell their crafts...but at an event that is supposed to harness the essence of Pagan Pride, don't you think there should be more than just that? I sure do.

There was one room in the whole building (oh, yeah...did I mention it was held in a church building? It was a UU church, which is cool and all, but still...I think it should have been outside) that, to me, held the spirit of what was being done for the local community. There were only two vendors in this room...one was doing an aura/spiritual cleanse for someone and the other side of the room had tarot readers...but there was something different in this room. There was a better feeling...a feeling of union, peace and understanding. It was awesome and the only highlight of the entire event.

I'm hoping that next year's will be better...but I'm not getting my hopes up for it. Of course, by that time I might just decide to hold my own. Seriously....

Tuesday, September 7, 2010

Tea Time Tuesday.....

Ok....so I would like to know what you guys would like to read about in this segment. I'm asking now before I start posting a bunch of stuff that nobody is really interested in. Of course, keep in mind, that I will post stuff that, more than likely, only I'm really interested in...but this is my blog :) I can do that :) LOL

But seriously...what aspects of tea would you like to read more about? The history? Different methods of preperation? Different blends? The holistic benefits of teas? Tell me, tell me, let me know....

For today...it's cloudy and overcast here. Time to fill up the pot and drink a cup of tea myself. I hope everyone has a fabulous Tuesday.

Sunday, September 5, 2010

Happy Weekend....

It started out really good...hung out with one of my best friends on Friday. Went to another friends house yesterday and got to see my godson. Played poker, ate brisket, had a great time. Got home kinda late and could feel a headache in the back of my skull. Figured I was just tired....so I went to sleep. The hubby woke me up at 6am to take him to work (which I got irritated at because I had to be back at home by 630 in order to get ready for work) and WHAM!....Hello migraine. Oh I was not a happy person. The hubby looked like someone had poured him into a kaleidoscope and I was uber-dizzy and nauseous.

I had to close my eyes in order not to have a terrible mess all over my carpet (and hubby's shoes). Told him to take the keys....I wasn't going anywhere. I took a few migraine pills and laid back down...incredibly thankful that it was still dark. Closed my eyes for what seemed like 5 min, only to open them and see that it was 3 hrs later and I had to call into work (I was supposed to be there at 8). Needless to say...they weren't too happy with me and now my supervisor and I get to have a "talk" when I go in tomorrow (praying the migraine stays sleeping). Normally...this wouldn't be a big deal at work...but it's the third time I've called in with a migraine in the past month. This is highly unusual for me. I might get one or two of these beasts a year....not three in a month. I'm sure that it has a lot to do with all the stress lately and erratic sleep schedules....but I have to figure out something. I can't go to a Dr. about it because I have no insurance and can't afford to pay the hospital bill.....can't even afford the meds.

I just pray that everything levels out soon. I pray we can find the hubby another vehicle soon. I pray we can get caught up on our bills soon.

I think I'm going to go take a bath and relax some....maybe crack open a book and see if I can read that for a bit without my head feeling like it's going to explode.

I hope you all have a great holiday weekend.....I'm going to try and savor what's left of mine w/ some down time and leftover brisket ;)

Thursday, September 2, 2010

No longer MIA

So here we are....it's been just about a month since I last posted here. Yeah....it's been a while. I've been uber-busy after the wee one left. Working, socializing, trying to find some sort of balance in my life so that I'm not wasting hours and hours on the computer. Still working on that last one by the way...lol. The hubby's truck died about two weeks ago....that's been fun let me tell you. We're still trying to find him another vehicle but with the budget we have to work with, it's proving to be difficult. My car, however, is loving the fact that it gets to be on the highway almost every day. Go figure....

I've spent the last four days without internet beyond what I can manage to pull up on my phone. It's been hell....I think I might be addicted people...seriously. It's kind of a scary thought. Those apps on facebook will be my undoing, I'm sure of it. I think about cutting some out and only playing those that I really like...but then I like them all or else I wouldn't be playing them. I have to figure out how to cut some time consumption off of that site, it's sucking the life out of me. I want to use my time for more constructive things....reading, painting/drawing, craft making, hanging out with friends. Yeah....I'm gonna work on that.

I saw the stats tab on the site this morning and I discovered that people are actually coming here to my little corner of the cyber world. I'm amazed to say the least. I kinda figured that I was just posting for myself and the 8 people who are currently following me....which is awesome in itself...but there are more of you out there. Cyber stalkers...it's awesome. LOL So, now that I know this I am going to make a commitment to post a little more regularly. We're talking more than once a month to start. I'll get back into my Tea Time Tuesday posts (since there have been only 2 this ought to be easy) starting next week. I want to thank those that have stopped by and at least gave it a cursory glance....it's appreciated.

Today's thing to be happy about....Sunlight streaming through a window.