I was catching up on the blogs that I stalk and came across a post by Bella at http://bellafoxglove.blogspot.com/ titled "It's Time...." and was smacked over the back of my head with a cosmic 2x4. Don't you love when that happens??
I am one of the most lazy individuals I know. No, seriously...I am. Don't get me wrong...I have great ideas and generally have a gung-ho attitude at the beginning of something. What I lack is the ability to follow through. With anything. Take this blog for example...I started it because I have a passion for herbs and a love of tea. I figured...take my passion and spread it's wonderfulness to others. Yeah...we see how far that's gotten. I dig the whole idea of yoga. I have a few books about the subject, a cool purple mat and even some nifty (way comfy) pants from Old Navy designed specifically for the act of yoga. Ask me when the last time I did yoga....go ahead, ask. Over a year ago!!
I recently stocked my fridge and pantry with all sorts of healthy food options. The most I've done is crack open the bag of broccoli and cauliflower so that I could devour a container of hummus. I love hummus. There is still salad, apples, kiwi, squash and all sorts of stuff in there. Unopened. I got things so that I could actually cook meals at home. I've gone to McDonald's, Sonic, Kentucky Fried Chicken and Taco Bell. **On a totally unrelated side note...McD's has these ultra cool color changing straws...they are wicked cool**
I bought an herbal supplement/multivitamin to help boost my metabolism and I took them for a week.
I have a written list of things I want to blog about this month...none have been looked at twice. I started this NaNoBloMo event that I found last night (consider this my first post ya'll) and signed up for NaNoWriMo for next month. There is a part of me that dreads all of this.
I don't know what my issue is...I don't know if it's sheer laziness, procrastination or a fear of actually doing something all the way through. Or if it's a combination of all of the above. But something has got to give.....doesn't it? I have to get off my butt and do something with my life. I'm 30 for crying out loud...shouldn't I have something to show for it? I should...and deep down I know the only thing holding me back is myself. I'm scared to death of actually succeeding at something. I have no idea why....but I am.
So....the buck stops here (or something like that). Baby steps...let's see if I can get through the rest of the week with the blog posting and we'll go from there. Wish me luck....I'm gonna need it. No, seriously...I am.