Sunday, August 31, 2014

Digging out from the hole

Good afternoon inhabitants of the interwebs!!!

Can someone come help me please?  I seem to be stuck in this hole and I don't see a rope or a shovel or anything to help get me out of here.  Like for real.....what the hell happened?

It's been well over a year since I even bothered putting anything here.....that speaks volumes I'm sure.  The teenager is now 14 and a Freshman in high school.  I've been through the wringer on multiple levels and I've lived to fight another day.

I had plans for this blog...and obviously they haven't happened.  So what's a witch to do?  Dust this off and start over.

Starting over....I seem to be doing that in spades lately.  Life, thought process, feelings, beliefs, wants, needs, desires, etc, etc, etc.

For now though....I've got to work on figuring out exactly how the hell to get out of the hole I put myself in and find my path again.

Seems like a great time to do it too.....fall being around the corner and a new year quickly approaching.

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Thursday, February 20, 2014

The Decision Has Been Made

I will be revamping this blog.  My daughter has turned 13 -- and has decided she wants to start to learn about what her cool mom does.  So this blog will be turning into the adventures of me and the kidlet. 


We're talking everything here folks.....fun times, bad times, all the in between times, the trials and tribulations of a single mom and her now teenage (and almost a freshman in high school) child.  Maybe one day I'll give her the URL of this blog and let her scroll through it on her own and find all the things her mom has had to say about....well, everything.


There will be cooking and crafting and witching it up at every turn.


I don't know how many of my awesome followers are still out there.....but if you are you're welcome to come along for the ride :D


Peace Out Muffins!!

Sunday, May 27, 2012

Time Flies When You're Living

So it's been 3 months since I have written (or even visited) this blog.  To be honest...I haven't had anything to say and just lost interest in trying to come up with anything to say.  Things over here in Okie land have been the same hum drum stuff as it was 3 months ago.  Except not....things have happened:  good things, bad things, things that I'm quickly becoming indifferent to.  Life has happened and most of it has been wonderful.  Decisions have been made and I'm working on manifesting nothing but positive changes in my life.

Despite the fact that it's been 3 months....I still don't have a whole lot to say.  My divorce has been finalized, I'm doing well at my job, my child is flourishing, I'm kinda-sorta seeing someone and I'm still broke as hell.  I'm still working on that whole "Trust" thing and I think it's going moderately well.  I'm constantly under construction and right now the most important thing to me is to get business taken care of and deal with my priorities.  The most important being my child and my own happiness. 

I'm going to figure out what I want to do with this blog and which direction I think it should go.....we'll see what happens :)

Monday, February 13, 2012

The Tea Witch's Word of the Year (Pt. 2)

Please refer to the post directly under this one for the actual word.  Thank you.

Ok....so I've done some thinking on this over the past few days and here's what I've come up with.  This word sucks giant monkey balls.  Seriously.  I demand a reshuffle *stares pointedly at the self-care cards that I used for this whole thing*.  Ok...now that I've had my mini-tantrum, let's get on with the good stuff.

According to dictionary.com "Trust" is defined as:  1. reliance on the integrity, strength, ability, surety, etc., of a person or thing; confidence; 2. confident expectation of something; hope. 
**There are a billion and a half other directions under these two...but I am not spending the time messing with all of those**

But I did notice that the second definition has one of my two favorite words in it.  "Hope".  I love that word a lot.  I believe (another one of my favorite words) that if you don't have hope....you have nothing.  This makes me feel like this word...that weird T word...is my word of the year for a reason. 

After putting up the Pt. 1 post...my good friend Hippy Jersey Devil posted a comment on it.  And that got my wheels turning (random moment of a CCR song just popped up in my head...lol).  She made a mention of how she doesn't trust herself anymore.  I read that and my brain, soul, gut instinct, etc, etc, etc. perked up all their ears at once.  Oh yes...it was like a mini electric pulse went shooting from my brain to my toes.  I had a Eureka moment folks...and that is some scary stuff right there.  LOL.

I have spent years living in self-doubt.  I've gotten so used to the inner critic and her whiny, bitchy voice that it's almost like second nature.  I do anything, anything at all and she's there.  Cooking, cleaning, writing, speaking, buying things, meeting people, pick something...anything...and she's there.  This constant little buzz in my brain that tells me I'm not good enough, can't do anything right, yadda, yadda, yadda.  Yeah...that's a whole hell of a lot of fun to live with.

Until Now.

You see....a year ago today I found out my husband was cheating on me.  He decided to take the cowards way out of our marriage and go shack up with someone else.  I was devastated, hurt, betrayed, angry, pissed off....pick a "scorned woman" adjective and insert here.  But most of all I was relieved.  Yup...I was relieved that he had done it.  I found out at 3am on Feb. 13th and less than 12 hours later, I was methodically going through my house taking inventory of what was his and how many boxes it would take to get rid of his stuff.  Over the course of that first weekend, I packed up over 1/2 of his belongings and got them out of my home.  Now...I'm not saying that I was just able to pick up and move on without batting an eyelash, that's not how it was at all.  I was able to get rid of him in my house and in my head....but there was a part of my heart that was aching and decided to show itself in other ways. 

As I often do....I turned to food...and the bad thing is, I didn't even know it.  I ended up putting on almost 50 pounds in a very short amount of time with absolutely no recollection of how the hell it managed to creep up on me.  A friend of mine snapped a picture of me while we were all together and showed it to me a few weeks later and it smacked me upside the head like a friggen 2x4.  I looked at the woman in the picture and actually asked my friend who it was.  I didn't even recognize myself.  That day was a real eye opener for me.  Since then I've managed to shrug off 40 of those 50 pounds and I've gotten rid of a lot of the other extra weight I've been carrying around as well.  But not all of it......that little inner voice is still there.  And she's really beginning to piss me off.

So...this year....this year will be different.  This year I will duct tape the inner critic to a chair and toss her ass down into the basement, never to return.....at least that's the plan. LOL.  I will learn to trust myself, believe in myself and know that my hopes are valid and legitimate.  This year I will stop letting that inner critic tell me I'm not good enough, not pretty enough, not well-spoken enough.  No longer will I allow her to tell me that I'm never going to amount to anything or matter to anyone.  No more will she be allowed to swallow me in negativity.  I am done allowing myself to be the sum of all of my so-called weak points.  I will find the strong, talented, amazing, special woman that I truly am and will embrace her.

This year I will learn to Trust the most important being on the planet.....Myself.

Wish me luck....The inner critic says I'll need it.  **Pulls out the duct tape**

Thursday, February 9, 2012

The Tea Witch's Word of the Year (Pt. 1)


Well...this one ought to be an adventure.  I'll post more about this later

Saturday, January 21, 2012

Changes....Again

It's a new year, the start of a new life for me...so that means that things will be changing in the land of The Tea Witch.

I'm probably not going to be online much for the next 5 or 6 weeks.....but stay tuned my tea lovin friends.  Updates will be posted when I get resettled.

Love and Tea Cozies!
xoxo

Saturday, December 31, 2011